04 September 2011

Falling into Autumn


I LOVE autumn!

Autumn is my absolute favorite time of the whole entire year^^

To feel the cool autumn breeze brushing across my face is such happiness(^_^)

Not surprisingly, I become a little bipolar in the fall haha

The happiness of the season, combined with the stress of work and school makes for some confused friends

But, I love fall haha

01 September 2011

T_T


Recently, I've been feeling kind of depressed...
It seems like certain people just can't seem to realise how emotionally abusive they really are.
I can't eat, can't sleep, can't think, and -- sometimes -- I can't stop crying.
=_=)
I freaking HATE emotional abuse - it hurts... probably even more than physical abuse.


Classes started off well, but then lately I've been getting so much emotional stress from certain people that I just feel like I hit a wall.
I feel like crying almost all the time.
All I can think about is how I want to get out of here.
Listening to people tell me how stupid my dream is...
After hearing it so many time, I've started to actually believe it, even if just a little.

What if my dream really is stupid?
What if I really can't be successful?

I wish I didn't feel this way, but it's like I just can't help it.
I wish I could go to see my friend.
I think getting away from this horrid environment and visiting him, even if only for a couple weeks, would be so soothing to my many emotional wounds.

I used to get straight A's
But now I feel like maybe I'm too stupid to do anything
So much so, that I can't even bring myself to really try
And as soon as I find a little piece of happiness
These people just tear it all away and degrade it
I really want to escape
But I just don't know how...