Yet.. I don't feel happy....
Why not?
Because.
Today I went to make some somen for lunch
It was my first time to eat somen - i ate it cold, because it's summer^^
I cooked it in boiling water with a tomato/chicken boullion for flavor
Then washed the cooked noodles under ice cold water - totally washing off the flavor haha
I had some steak with it
DELICIOSO!!!!!
I LOVE SOMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yet... i still couldn't/can't feel happy
It seems that everything I do just gets ridiculed by my family
My friends are always excited (or at least pretend to be excited) to hear about new things I'm learning / trying.
But family.... they just think it's stupid
They have no respect for other cultures (not everyone in the family, just some.....)
Maybe they don't mean to be disrespectful, but they are.
It's difficult to be happy when everything you do gets questioned by the people around you
"So... what are you studying in school?"
"Oh... I'm doing gen-eds now, then later I'm gonna go to Oregon to study Japanese and Chinese."
**Blank stare** "Oh... well that's... nice."
"Yeah, it's really exciting. I love Japanese."
**Continuous blank stare** "Yeah... I have to go now. Have fun with... Japanese or whatever"
=_=)
I think the only (American) person who supported me (other than my friends) was my high school French teacher.
She wished me good luck and said I would do well because I'm good with languages.
God... I wish I would have paid more attention in French class....
She supports my studying Japanese (or maybe at least pretended to) and I wasn't even the best student
I was snobby and conceited, never paying attention
I don't know how I managed to learn anything
Though... she was a pretty great teacher^^
At the time, I didn't realize it
But looking back.... she's one of the best teachers in town
I'm glad she was my teacher.
Now if only I had paid more attention in class......
Anyways... enough self-pity
I have to take a psych quiz (my last one!!!!)
And tomorrow take my final
Hmm....
Hopefully a certain friend will be on Skype tomorrow
If not I think my final will be so difficult to concentrate on :(
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